I am not a social media content creator. I am a conservation and documentary photographer. My life—professionally, personally, and spiritually—revolves around protecting this planet and all of its inhabitants. My days are spent outdoors; when I am inside, I crave the exit. My work is a dedicated vigil to this magnificent creation of rock, water, and gas, intended to help others assume their roles as custodians of this special place we call home.
You can imagine, then, how in my pivot to full-time conservation photography, I have been blindsided by the enormous amount of time required of me on social media. It was so frightening that I turned on my heels and ran as far as I could. I didn't get far. Now, the truth has sunk in: my success hinges on the content I create, the strategies I pursue, and the relationships I build. Online.
That's a difficult pill to swallow. I'm a people person—tactile, warm, and genuinely interested in learning about others. I am committed to sharing the stories, both triumphant and tragic, that matter to us all.
A couple of days ago, I found myself writing a DM that mentioned my affinity for language; for its power to heal, inform, and shift perspectives. Words are valuable to me in a way they themselves fail to articulate. Oh, the irony! It is not lost on me: a fine-point pen and my Canon cameras are my fifth and sixth limbs. Why should I struggle to engage on these platforms when I was writing almost as soon as I could walk? Stringing sounds into sentences that linger on the mind was a skill I adopted early.
Given the weight I put into writing, shouldn't I feel comfortable here? To an extent, I do—when I am engaging with others. I derive immense perspective from reading about the discoveries and achievements of my peers. Those stories drive me…the inferno inside this body boils hotter and my activism oozes.
But then, it's my turn to post. Or rather, the algorithm says I must post, lest I be lost forever. I am told I cannot be heard, nor hired, without it. In an admission of overwhelm, I have come to feel dehumanised by a digital ether that insists I bend to its will or struggle to earn a living doing what the world needs.
Putting Reflection into Practice
I've looked for the root of this social media anathema with brutal honesty. Is it an issue of control? An aversion to being 'bent over a barrel' by an invisible force? Or is it fear—the classic imposter syndrome whispering that my work isn't good enough? The answers didn't add up until recently, when the truth struck so hard, I couldn't help but weep. Nearly inconsolably.
Gone are the days of face-to-face word of mouth. In its place I find abbreviated lingo and timetables dictating the 'best' hour of the day to talk about a planet in crisis. Beyond the algorithms, I realised I was struggling to hold onto my identity. I felt a deep, intense disconnection. I had managed to keep the digital invasion at bay for so long that I had ousted myself from reality.
I've always said we should have stopped at microwaves.
In the time between the microwave and AI, the world changed so much that my rejection of it has sparked a crisis of identity. I thrive on phone calls and still send greeting cards… the paper kind. I live in a world that accommodates the need for physical community.
Today, communities are built online. That could have been a good thing were it not for the fact these communities are sustained only because the algorithms require our constant attention, gobbling up every syllable and interaction.
I am told that to find collaborations, I must be strategic. I must align myself with potential clients. While that is a rule of business, it feels duplicitous online. There is something about speaking face-to-face—reading body language and knowing a smile is genuine—that makes sharing one's skills feel natural.
Which leads to the greatest hurdle: self-promotion. It makes me shudder. I am always the first to urge others to promote themselves, yet doing it myself feels disingenuous. I fear my warmth and genuine desire to help conservation organisations won't be felt or understood through a screen. Am I even allowed to feel this way without being trolled?
I stand at a crossroads. Don't engage and reap no rewards, or engage and accept a life of arms-length connection. As I type this, I hope for a third way: that I can inject a perfect modicum of 'humanness' into this digital world.
Tomorrow's mantra will be this:
I do not serve the machine. I use the machine to serve Earth.
Fingers crossed this might just help put food on the table.
But still… don't you wish we'd stopped at microwaves?